18 January 2010
Time Goes By
Posted by Nadene under: Blog; Nadene's Thoughts .
Wow! I can’t believe the last time I posted here was almost one year ago. Many people may not read this any more since it has been so long in between updates, but I wanted to post just the same. It has been exactly one and a half years since my mother passed away. I have been thinking about her a lot lately, as my life has been changing and growing. I have a full time teaching job now, something I had always dreamed of and my mother never got to see. I am also rooming with an old friend of hers, just took over payments on my mom’s old car, put it in my name, and got my own car insurance policy. I have a boyfriend, that my mom met but never got to know very well. I am becoming an adult and still not sure how to make some big decisions without her. I’m looking to more people for advice and guidance. My mother was very wise and I knew I could count on her to speak reason and wisdom with big decisions. Now I turn to others who also possess this gift, but it’s never the same as asking her. This summer, I have some decisions to make as to moving and changing jobs and I so this has been on my mind lately. I wish I could ask her what she thinks.
The other thing that has hit me is that, because my mom died when she was 50, she was half done with her life at 25. I will be turning 25 in February, and that is a scary thought. Of course none of us knows our last day, for all I know half my life could have been two years ago, and I’d never know it. The point is that I realize more every day, that I need to do my best not to waste any time in my life. Not that I should rush into everything, but rather that I need to make sure I’m not spending time doing pointless activities. My time should be spent with people, building into them, caring for them, sharing life with them. People in my family, people in the body of Christ, people who need Christ. My life should be more Gospel centered, so that if my calling card is next year, in 25 years or in 50 years, I will be able to hear the words every Christian longs to hear when they get to heaven, “Well done, good and faithful servant.”
Nadene